Oh yeah. Good post. No matter how burdened I am from politics or war it’s my neighbors and walks. No matter what the weather is we meet neighbors. Or the clerks at bi mart or winco who no me so well. My convience store diary is set aside but a run for beer in sadness brought the clerk out of the store to wish the best as the health of our old doggie has declined.
There are good folks nearby. That are a treasure to me.
My niece woke up one morning & went to work without disturbing her sleeping wife. As the morning passed into afternoon she checked on Toni to find she had left the earth with a magic marker display of DO NOT RESUSCITATE written on her chest.
But the worst wasn’t over. Lesbians in northern Louisiana got the full attention of the small town police department. Time to lock my niece in the back of a patrol car & hold her with a Bible Belt while they called in the murder investigation & while they searched the home, removed the body & transported it to Arkansas. Weeks later ashes were released.
I was her phone call. I couldn’t understand a single word. I live in Oregon, WTF could I do?
Later I watched the suicide video/note & screamed at a dead woman.
Time passed & we moved, not on, but forward.
Then a year & a half later my husband’s best friend left a note: DEAD BODY INSIDE.
If you’ve ever once thought you’d make a clean exit, pick up the pieces left after people you love have killed your heart.
Sometime I will write about suicide. Or attempted suicide. There are many. Who seek the solace of death. Sliding home sideways. A healthy happpy life for some seems unattainable. I understand when one is dying from organ failure quickly. My heart goes out to others who for them the pain of just existing becomes more than they can bear.
Oh yeah. Good post. No matter how burdened I am from politics or war it’s my neighbors and walks. No matter what the weather is we meet neighbors. Or the clerks at bi mart or winco who no me so well. My convience store diary is set aside but a run for beer in sadness brought the clerk out of the store to wish the best as the health of our old doggie has declined.
There are good folks nearby. That are a treasure to me.
My niece woke up one morning & went to work without disturbing her sleeping wife. As the morning passed into afternoon she checked on Toni to find she had left the earth with a magic marker display of DO NOT RESUSCITATE written on her chest.
But the worst wasn’t over. Lesbians in northern Louisiana got the full attention of the small town police department. Time to lock my niece in the back of a patrol car & hold her with a Bible Belt while they called in the murder investigation & while they searched the home, removed the body & transported it to Arkansas. Weeks later ashes were released.
I was her phone call. I couldn’t understand a single word. I live in Oregon, WTF could I do?
Later I watched the suicide video/note & screamed at a dead woman.
Time passed & we moved, not on, but forward.
Then a year & a half later my husband’s best friend left a note: DEAD BODY INSIDE.
If you’ve ever once thought you’d make a clean exit, pick up the pieces left after people you love have killed your heart.
Thanks for reminding us of our beautiful, fragile gift.
Sometime I will write about suicide. Or attempted suicide. There are many. Who seek the solace of death. Sliding home sideways. A healthy happpy life for some seems unattainable. I understand when one is dying from organ failure quickly. My heart goes out to others who for them the pain of just existing becomes more than they can bear.
Thank you for this.